Lost in my own home

I am feeling lost currently.. At office we having a lil bit of structure change and suprisingly it kind a effect to my work mood. At first after the announcement i told to myelf that this 'under control' thingy wont effect me much as the changes is not on my direct report.

But after a week i become more and more demotivated and sometimes i felt lost to the environment that i thot i know it very well. Almost 8 years the organization, for the first time ever i find myself being push to leaving this comfort zone..

Arggghh.. I need to have more strength to face this 'transformation' times..  :| :|

Hubby back to skool

Life become more hectic and hectics nowdayz. I am losing my commitment to write to this blog after not even 2 months it went 'live'. Haha.. 

We are still not celebrating Hadif birthday officially even secara kecil-kecilan. What a poor boy. Sian dia daddy.. Sorry Dip, mummy and daddy are very bz with all the duniawi matters. We shall plan something for you this weekend. Wait yer sayang..! 

Asip will be back to the lecture hall by next week. I shall be more independant woman after this to give him a ways for his life advancement. Hope he will use this golden oppurtunitty to gain more knowledge and experience in life. No more main2 yek sayang like last time.. I know you can do it.. and just do it..

Life is short so make it sweet...

Monday yg ala2 BLUES..

Pagi tadi hantar hubby kat ERL. He went to Kuching for 3 days on work matters. So tinggal la mummy and Adip 2 beranak kat umah. Sometimes bila dipikirkan ada pros and cons jugak bila ditinggalkan nih. Yelah asyik duk berkepit jek bila hubby outstation dpt la masing2 have a own spaces. Tapi cukup la minimum seminggu kalo lama2 benar letih la mummy nak look after Muhammad Hadif sorang diri kan. Hehe.. Camne la agaknyer perasaan isteri2 yg suami dia kje offshore tue yekk? Lagi la adventures.. tapi rasa berbaloi bila hubby balik ke darat bawak balik duitz berkepok.. Itu lah yg selalu orang kata.. 

Now i keep on thinking of 'something'. Hmmm rasa kepingin sgtt.. Harap2 Allah makbulkan..Aminn!

Week so called 'workoholic'

This week my team are hectic with a lots of things that need to be solve and settle on the work matters. Inila dikatakan bz tahap gaban. Biasa nyer scenario camni akan berlaku after meeting with  bosses or selepas department/division meeting. During that meeting besela sema akan kena 'basuh' tue yg contributed to adrenalin spike from normal.  

A lots things happened in my office lately but i am too lazy to make it in the write up. Too many work things to do.. and too many politics.. I received this email from my superior after meeting with the bosses. No comment from me coz i better reserved my words...  

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Subject: Underdogs

Just had a short meeting between our team and our boss. I feel so demoralized today. IT work culture has evolved and is still evolving and it’s getting more and more deviate from my life and working principal.

If we do not ‘evolve’ also, then we shall always be the underdogs.

My chest is so heavy and I feel like I can cry anytime..

Singapore in action...

Minggu nie byk adhoc things berlaku. Me and hubby travelled to Singapore almost like balik hari on Monday.  Reason to do so is bacause my mum suppose to go there on Sunday last week for her family gathering and also to attend my cousin wedding by this weekend. The planning is mum and my 2 aunties to go Singapore by train but unfortunately while she almost in the train, we realized that her passport is left at home during that 'tight' moment. There no way to chase for the passport nor either for train but it solely for say good bye time to my 2 aunties. Tragisss btol la time tuhh.. Haiya cuba la u all imagine..  

Malam tuh hubby g klinik sbb athma and alergy dia naik. I think side affect after makan 'kington' rasa nyer. Doctor kasi 2 days mc because of mata dia naik gatal2, bengkak and merah2. Lepas tuh la idea nak g Singapore tu muncul sbb kesian tgk my mum yg dah terkandas. Dah berbulan2 dia and her siblings create agenda ke Spore alih2 lain plak jadi nyer. Mereka2 yg kat Spore pun tak cukup korum due to unavailabilty of her. So to make it short and unhussle, me, hubby and my son gie menghantar nenek sampai ke Spore nun.. But before that i need to arrange for urgent leave and sewaktu dengan nyer.. Ingat nak apply leave via Peoplesoft online but broadband plak problem. So dalam sejarah Nanis gie cyber cafe tgh2 malam buta just for a sake of apply leave thru online. Haha..

Kat Singapore, sempat jugak berjalan2 cuci mata. Nak shopping sakan terpaksa control coz Sing dollar mahal la skrang. RM100 dpt $40 Sing dollar jek. Mmg tak berbaloii..

But no regret, we have a really nice and fun travelling journey..  :)

Write.. and write

This is my 1st write up for this week. Today already Thursday and i felt quite bored and 'lazy' with the world sorrounding me now.. Yesterday and the day before i attended training at the new training centre at KL Sentral - named Axiata Infinity Centre. Nice place for training infra and atmosphere but i think the food are so-so only.  

For today i have to catch up all the office works since im away from office for 2 days. Unfortunately until now while this sentences been typing i am still in the warming up mood. Hmmmm....  

Mummy at work!

Today is a Friday and it a day that everyone is waiting for.. Haha.. (kalah budak2 skolah). Today we having a free lunch sponsored by bosses. The foods are nice and we got a time to have a long chit chat with my office fren while having our friday luncheon. 

Tomorrow my pren Hazra will organize her daughter bday bash at Klang. Speaking of birthday party, next month early Dec Adip will turn 3. Last year i remembered me and hubby used to mentioned that we shall have a big bday celebration when Adip turn 3 years old. So hubby.. what ur plan..? Is that going to happen so that i need to do the preparation from now on OR the same thing will just repeated. Which is we conclude again that we going to have the 'big' bday celebration when Adip turn 4. Haha.. I am still waiting for the answer...

Me and My dream..

Recently i think my performace at work hv been decrease a lil bit due to this kind of 'dream'. Dont know why lately i always dreaming to have some kind of different life routine from what im doing rite now. Why? why? why? Its follow me everywhere i go.. Esp during my 'working' time.. Hmmm it is a sign of my 30's life crisis. Haha.. What im suppose to do rite now..? OR it just a normal scenario for a woman who have a good carreer and at the same time want to excel in manage her family and also to be a good daughter for their parent.. plus to enjoyed their life as a woman...

Hmmm.. alas me and my day dreaming...

Monday Blues..

As usual Monday comes after weekend over.. Hmm pagi tadi sgt malas rasa nyer utk ke ofis. Di tambah dgn sakit2 badan after picniking activities yesterday at waterfall bukit lagong, selayang. Nice and recomended place plus org pun tak ramai. Sesekali dpt gathering ngan all family members except for my elderst brother, Along.

Lunch tadi kitaorg g lunch kat Istana Budaya (IB). Sonok catch up each other macam la setahun tak jumpe. Unplan we all turn up beli tiket Natrah for 4th Dec show. Hehe.. but ok la mende2 camni mmg kena unplan. Kalo planning2 selalu tak menjadi...

I love Friday.. do you..?

It's Friday! and i loike.. As usual kemalasan at work melanda even there are some office thingy need to be settled by today. Start thinking of agenda during this weekend. Guess what? payout day will be this weekend.. waaa so many cheerful thing shall color us by this weekend. On Sunday my family planning to bersantai2 di tepi sungai. Apa lagi waterfall relaxing.. and also thinking of to have some kind of 'date' with my hubby at executive restaurant. Haha lama dah rasa nyer tak makan sedap2 kat luar.. Ala hubby.. satay station also will do.. (executive restaurant konon..! haha)

Hi all

Salam. Hi all..

At last i manage to have my own blog after soooooo many years i intent to do so.. It such as an achievement for me.. Haha.. will update/write to all of you about me and my world soon.

See ya.. Hug and kisses..

::NaNis::